Thursday, March 15, 2012

Crossroads

Lately I've begun to wonder what is going to happen with this blog.  I've been following many blogs for the year (plus) I've been blogging.  Some blogs have gone private.  Some bloggers have opted to end their blogs for various reasons.  Those reasons include: having a baby and not having time to continue blogging, stopping the journey towards parenthood and finding it too painful to continue writing about that decision, finding that infertility is no longer a subject that dominates enough thought each day to warrant continuing an infertility blog, etc.  Some bloggers who have found their "happily ever after" change their blogs to mommy blogs.  Some say goodbye before signing off for good.  Some just stop writing one day.  Just as each journey is individual and each blog is individual, the right way to approach a "blog transition" varies based on the individual writer.  I guess the question is, what "blog transition" is appropriate for me.

I have NOT been blogging nearly as much as I used to.  I miss it terribly.  I don't want to stop blogging all together, as I find writing incredibly therapeutic and emotionally rewarding.  I've made the most amazing 'blog friends" over the last year and I feel like I continue to make more friends with each post I write and each post I read.  I don't think I can just quit writing this blog...it would feel like I was moving away from my friends and family.  That means I need to figure out what type of transition is appropriate for me.  The subject which dominates my thoughts these days is not my infertility journey, but the amazing outcome of that journey.  Don't get me wrong, I am still at a point where not a day goes by that I don't think of my infertility/egg donor journey at least once, but even so my blog could very easily turn into a "mommy blog," as I LOVE writing about my little man.  I feel weird about officially morphing my blog into that though, as I feel like it isn't staying true to the infertility roots of this blog.  I also have a major life decision coming up that I need to deal with, and I would love to focus my blog on that for awhile, as it is another journey of sorts (without getting too involved in the discussion, the topic involves the possibility of undergoing weight loss surgery), but that topic is only tangentially related to infertility and/or motherhood.  I don't think I'm up to multiple blogs when I have difficulty already being "present" on this one.

I look at my blog homepage and I think of all of the things I want to change visually.  I look at my blogger name (Princess Wahna Bea Mama) and I worry that it doesn't fit neatly into my situation anymore.  I am in need of change.  I need this blog to continue to reflect who I am and where I am at in my life.  I'm just not sure how to do that. 

So, what do I do?  I know the decision is ultimately mine, but I would LOVE it if you...my blog friends...could give me words of advice, support, guidance, etc.  I have lots of blog friends at lots of different stages of their own journeys...through infertility and through life.  You all have a way of making me think about things that I overlook when I'm trying to analyze something on my own.  I would love any help you have to offer.

4 comments:

NewYearMum said...

I'm in the process of morphing my blog into a more general loss, secondary IF and motherhood... with no known outcome yet :) But I wanted to broaden it out and make it public again to hopefully include resource pages for those who might need it. That means changing my title, name, layout and even URL... but it's refreshing and fun :) I love reading blogs of mums who've beaten the odds of IF/ART and still have that story there as their foundation... so inspirational :)) Fran at Small Bird Studio does great work, if you want a hand with design etc. love to you always and looking forward to going along with you on your journey xoxo

Endo_Life said...

I am still waiting to start any Treatments but love keeping up with your blog. I understand that maybe some things don't fit with where you are in your life anymore but whatever you decide I would love to keep following along so please let us know what you decide x

Hope that little boy of yours is doing amazingly well !

Jem said...

Keep blogging if it makes you happy. Write about what you want. Your blog will change with time and that's ok.

S said...

I don't know that I'll be of much assistance to you in coming to a decision about what to do with your blog. I just wanted to comment and say that I'm pretty much in the same place with regard to my own blog. I don't want to be a "mommy blogger," and I no longer feel the urge to blog about infertility related issues. (Not that I no longer relate, but my focus is just somewhere else these days.)

I have enjoyed reading your writing and will continue to read if you choose to continue to write. :)