Sunday, July 17, 2011

Hello Again

To state the obvious…I haven’t posted much lately.  After my last post about a Facebook announcement, I realized that my moods and my feelings about things are shifting too rapidly right now to be using my blog in the same way I used to.  Perfectly well-meaning and reasonable comments hurt my feelings on one day and seem like great advice the next.  I don’t know what I want to do right now about Facebook’s relationship to my pregnancy.  What I do know is that I never want this blog to become something that causes me anxiety or negative feelings, and it has a little bit lately.  I think I need to stop analyzing every little decision I make during this pregnancy (which is easier said than done, as “over-analyzing” is my M.O.), and just go with my gut.  I understand that this approach could lead to unintended, even negative consequences later on.  But I truly believe that cleaning up messes I’ve made can’t be worse than the persistent worrying I’ve been doing over the last three months.   I need to start trying to make the right decisions for me, with less emphasis on how my decisions affect others.  That probably sounds really selfish, but I need to be a little selfish right now.  I need to put the baby first, and that means putting myself first, too.  I haven’t been doing that.

On a lighter note, my sister-in-law finally had her baby.  My sister-in-law (a pre-pregnancy size 0, with the tiniest hips you’ve ever seen) was allowed to go a week and a half past her due date by her doctor (surprising to me).  Finally, on Thursday, they were alarmed when the baby’s estimated weight came in at 10 pounds.  A quick decision was made to do a C-section, as there was little chance of my sister-in-law getting that baby out the old fashion way.  It wasn’t what my sister-in-law had wanted, but she is pretty easy going, and she put the baby’s needs ahead of her own desires (of course).  The baby girl (the gender had been a secret)– Taylor Leigh – was born on Friday, weighing 9 pounds and 14 ounces.  She’s sooooooo beautiful and I wish I could spend more time with her.  Unfortunately, I got sick a few times during our two visits to the hospital this weekend, so I don’t think more extended visits are in my future just yet.

Spending time with Taylor and my sister-in-law had an unexpected effect on me.  In the last couple of days, I have totally bonded with little Baby Hamish (FYI- The Prince’s family is HORRIFIED that I am even indulging The Prince in allowing “Hamish” as a pre-birth nickname.  The Prince stands no chance of getting “Hamish” on the birth certificate).  Seeing Taylor go from her mommy’s tummy into our arms over the course of a couple of days has helped me to remember that, all too soon, my pregnancy is going to be over and I will have our baby in my arms.  While that will be an amazing, exciting time, I really want to savor the remaining six months of what will in all likelihood be my only pregnancy.


Michelle D said...

Sorry to hear you felt emotional with things (it's pregnancy it happens). I went back and read the other comments and agree with those that say it's cause to celebrate. You deserve to enjoy every minute and if you don't enjoy it you will look back and regret not celebrating your pregnancy. You don't have to do it loud and proud all over FB or blog if that makes you uncomfortable but you shouldn't feel the need to hide it either. Congratulations and sounds like you are off to a good start on how to deal :)

Christina said...

Congrats on your niece! The transition from belly to outside world still has me in awe.

As for announcing it, do what every makes you feel most comfortable. I know going loud and proud on FB is not for me. I've definitely found going with my gut on things to be much better in the long run! Absolutely enjoy the next 6m. This time is really about the 3 of you so make the most of it!

ps- I'm glad your blogger commenting issue is fixed! I have missed your comments!

infertilenanny said...

I'm the same way these days. I feel over sensitive a lot of times and end up taking a day or two before responding to things that bother me. I'm glad that you are in a better mood and congrats on becoming an auntie!